4/10/2009
noone but me from URL @ 12:35 PM
You always smile, but in your eyes..
I don't think anyone really moves on from what hits them hard.
Sometimes i think i have, he has, she has, but we all really haven't.
Cos when we least expect it, it comes right back and hits us exactly where it hurts the most.
No we don't show it, we don't speak about it, but we all know that we hurt.
Its at times like this when you thought that you've dealt with it;
that you had made that emptiness a part of you and become whole again.
But now i think that all these holes just eat at you and you don't even know it.
When hugging the closest friend nor hugging the bolster at night works to fill that aching you just cannot find the source of.
It eats at you doesn't it? Like a parasite. It eats so slowly and you don't even realise that it's been relishing it until you feel the pain of the hole.
I realise that i don't deal, i run away, i hide; well i do everything but deal and now i realise that it hurts. I see sadness and i realise what this should have been like, and i think like this because i have a hole; i am not whole, so i don't appreciate what i have.
& i realise that i don't talk about what bothers me.
Not anymore, not to anyone.
Yeah, i think everyone heals, cos yes, time heals.
But no one quite moves on a hundred percent & i don't think time helps with that.
Too much baggage.
But welll, pick up your 99% other bags and go right? Righttttttt.
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My mother just came in and told me that she put all the beehoon and ingredients out for me to cook. & i said, "No. NOOOO!". Then she said, "okay fine, you just don't eat then". So i said "okay fine. What kind of a mother are you ah ma?" Then she stared at me for awhile, and went, "aiyaaa okay okay i'll cook. Why do you do this to me sarah? You are like a curse you know. A curse! ... & Clean your fan!" & slammed the door hahahaha. My mother so funnnyyyy.
& Nish! Hope you're feeling better. Why you always falling sickk ): Pls go drink a lotlotlot of water and sleep more. Work can wait for awhile. Takecare k nishukusu! (I miss you like a LOT btwwwwwww)
&Roopi your stomach spoiler la ): But you also, dont eat all the kanda kanda rubbish all like pandi okay. get well sooon.
& Goodjob to Suria Narmo Nurin & VJSG! So proud of everyone! :D I can't wait for wednesdays, wna go for all the matches and screaaammmm for you my soccer-playerzz. If only i have a time-turner (think harry potter) i will rewind^3 & go for all the matches, but howellz. Please drink a lottttt of water. (haha random but yeah)
Okay, gottogoto church and then study with Roopi Boopi.
Gotttogetbackintostudyingmodeeeeeee.
& OHHHHH! LIBERATION FOR ME: 25TH NOVEMBER! :D
whooptidooooo! Bye!
should've thought faster.
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